man, this has been a hard weekend. Reall

man, this has been a hard weekend. Really feeling lost and hollowed out. Packing up this house, things keep reminding me of her and it really hurts. Urges to self injury come and go. I almost cry, but tears don't seem to wanna flow. I thought it was 2am--just realized it's 3.fuck. This is just all so awful and fucked.