So, my step dad is still in the hospital, but as of yesterday came out of ICU. He has had bleeding from his colon and they could not run any tests or really fix anything because they had been unable to get him stabilized. Thankfully, he seems to be doing a lot better.
Him going in the hospital really threw me. I have felt, the last few days, like I am not doing so well. I really felt like I had been bearing up well to everything-- kinda continually surprising myself. The last few days have been really tough.
I think Thursday I basically gave notice at work. That went well, although I was hoping to get my boss to wrangle me a layoff. No Dice on that. Oh well.
I am feeling kind of scared. I miss my wife and I miss our other dog (who she took) and I feel like everything that provided any form of stability to me is gone or going and I am afraid of whether I am strong enough to deal.
I have slept a lot this weekend... always a bad sign for me. And I have so much to do.