well, I missed yesterday, but put some things down on paper. This week has been harder than last. I guess it's sinking in. I don't remember feeling this isolated and alone. Looking forward to my Psych app't tomorrow, hopefully can get some stuff done and get some direction for homework, etc.

I can't figure out if I want to stay up here in NC or move. It will be harder for me to give her the space she needs if we are in the same city. I don't wanna drive her out of there-- she has already talked about going to maybe live with some friends in PA for a while (pretty weird coming from somone who was as homesick as she was.

But I am so alone up here. I have a couple of friends here, but it certainly is not home.